I'm Sorry

So tonight I ended up hurting someone that is very special to me, I wish i could turn back time and not hurt you I didn't even mean to either just sometimes I forget that what i say will hurt people, when i'm pissed I always end up saying things, things that i sometimes don't mean and I can't take back what I said and you don't know how sorry i am for hurting you because your amazing and beautiful and just so genuinely sweet that hurting you is the last thing that I want to do.

I just can't stand this i really can't it's already hard enough liking you and not being able to be with you due to distance and age cap and your always there when I need you and I just feel soooooooooooooooooooooooo bad for hurting you. I'm just so fucking sorry for hurting you. i honestly hate myself for hurting you forgive me?

x

Favourite Movies

Here are my top 5 movies.

1. Priscilla Queen of the Desert - Three friends, three lives, one persuasion and a pink bus named Priscilla head into the Australian desert with their colourful, extravagant show in a road movie that brings culture clash to the forefront of a comedy of errors. A mixture of vast landscapes, narrow minds and a melancholy, reflective mood that with the help of a larger than life gal that is Priscilla she more than widens the comfort zones and finds not just new horizons but also finds that is lost.

2. Cool Runnings - When the Jamaican sprinter Derice Bannock is disqualified to the Olympic Games due to a silly accident, he envision the chance to participate in bobsleigh modality. He meets the dishonored couch Irving Blitzer, who is living in the tropical country after two gold medals and elimination due to cheating, and convinces him to couch the first Jamaican Bobsled Team. They form a group with the push-cart driver Sanka Coffie, the sprinter Yul Brenner and the rich Junior Bevil and without any sponsor, fly to Calgary, Alberta, Canada to participate of the XV Olympic Winter Games at -25o C. In the end, they become winners without winning the game.

3. Romeo & Juliet - Classic story of Romeo and Juliet, set in a modern-day city of Verona Beach. The Montagues and Capulets are two feuding families, whose children meet and fall in love. They have to hide their love from the world because they know that their parents will not allow them to be together. There are obstacles on the way, like Juliet's cousin, Tybalt, and Romeo's friend Mercutio, and many fights. But although it is set in modern times, it is still the same timeless story of the "star crossed lovers"

4. Adventureland - In 1987, James Brennan's dreams of a summer European tour before studying at an Ivy League school in New York City are ruined after his parents have a severe career setback. As a result, James must get a summer job to cover his upcoming expenses at the decrepit local amusement park, Adventureland, where he falls in love with a witty co-worker, Emily Lewin. In that bizarrely shady workplace, the young carnies have unforgettable and painful learning experiences about life, love and trust while James discovers what he truly values.

5. Stick It - Haley Graham is a former gymnast-turned-juvenile delinquent whom, after one too many run-ins with the law, is forced to enroll at an elite gymnastics academy, the VGA in Houston, Texas which is run by the legendary Olympic gymnast Burt Vickerman. But the rebellious Haley is not welcomed into the academy by the other teenage gymnasts whom despise her for walking out on her Junior Olympic team years earlier during a competition which cost them the gold medal. But Haley is not a docile person either and makes every effort to provoke conflicts with the other girls. Vickerman takes it upon himself to coach Haley in his own way to make her regain her self respect for the VGA's coming spot on the Gymnastic Nationals

Peace x

Pretty Little Liars

Ok so have just started watching Pretty Little Liars am only 4 episodes in and am completely loving it. It's seriously addicting you just really want to know who A is. Is it Alison who's meant to be dead or is it someone else that could have possible know everything and then could it be Jenna who went blind thanks to something Alison did? did Alison confess everything to her and now Jenna's doing it.

Also how did she die? and is she really dead? i'm seriously going with she's not dead but I guess gotta get watching to find out, also wondering what other dirty little secrets the four of them are hiding? Ah who knew this show could become so addictive. Though to fast tack i could always just read the books its based on but sometimes what things are based on aren't always exactly like it if that made any sense what so ever.

Well i'm back to watching the show now. x

Fanfic recommendations

These are my favourite Twilight Fan fictions.

1. Just Wait by InstantKarmaGirl

2. The misapprehension of Bella Swan by hunterhunting

3. Clipped Wings & Inked Amor by hunterhunting

4. Song Bird by SydneyAlice

5. University Of Edward Masen bySebastienRobichaud

6. Master of the University by Snowqueens Icedragon

7. Retail Therapy by cosmogirl7481

8. Not Like This by by pomme_de_terr

9. See Me through by anallbr

10. Take The Ice by bellamarie117

That's my top 10 for now, i have a really long list oh and all of those are rated M so consider yourself warned.

Peace x

Dreams

Had the scarestest dream the other night, i swear it was borderline nightmare!! My dream involved having someone stalking me and being obsessed with me but what made it so scary was the stalker was actually someone that I did know in real like. How freaking scary is that? he's my besties uncle and I honestly don't know why my subconscious chose him to be my stalker but he isn't someone that I like i'll admit that but haven't seen him years so why does my brain chose him to be my stalker?

Also know I had a dream last night but I don't remember it so could be a good or bad thing. I only like remembering good dreams especially after that dream the other night, honestly am still a bit freaked out about it. The only other dream that completely freaked me out was one a had as a kid which involved Huge spiders like spiders bigger than my whole body.

though last week I did have a really really good dream one that I ended up waking up with a smile on my face, that is really rare but it was nice plus it was about a special person and those dreams are always good :)

You know how people think that your dreams could mean something? well if my dreams means something I really don't think I want to know what my stalker dream means because if the dream freaks me out this much well hate to know how much more freaked I would be about the meaning of it.

Am also attempting to write a o/s from my happy dream the other night. Will most likely have to be edited a lot by someone but it is coming along just fine though there is a part that is getting hard to write but am doing my best at it. Might post it here after it's done but will warn now it's will be rated R.

Peace x

This Is Life I Guess ...

Well i've come to the conclusion that well while my life doesn't completely suck doesn't mean that I really like it, and I hate complain about it because there are billions of people who's lives suck a billion times then mine.

And I hate complaining because if i complain all the time then it feels like i'm complaining just to get attention and it's not because honestly I don't like attention, only when its the flirting type of attention because that i do love especially when it comes from the person that i like.

I just hate being the one that people come to when they want something done or when someone else comes online you'd rather talk to them i've heard you complain about when people do that but I don't think you realise you do it as well.

And I really don't want to complain about that but I do feel ignored somethings and I know that you never mean to ignore people because your amazing sweet person but i guess that's just how i feel and I really do hate feeling this way because honestly is it worth feeling this way we are really only friends and will most likely only ever be friends but you are special to me, really special to me.

Now onto something random, so my ex friended me on facebook, that part wasn't so weird it was more the face that he has facebook now the boy doesn't go online all that much ever but now he's made a facebook? I accepted it because well were actually great friends i think we both realised that we were better off friends because honestly we are closer now that were not together which is weird isn't it normally the other way around? but it's true :) and i'm happy that he's there for me when I need him, unlike some people i'd consider friends.

Well I think that's all for now .. Well that's all i've got to get off my mind right now there is probably more but hey don't want to bore you too much.

Peace xx

Meltdown ..

So last night had a little melt down, yeah embarrassing right on twitter no less but just needed to happen i guess it was like every little thing just annoyed me so much that I just broke, not sure what broke the camels back as the saying goes but it did & then the water works started and I just couldn't stop them though once it stop made my headache worse that's for sure but then sleep eventually took over and I slept in for quite sometime I didn't sleep in as long as I normally would but I actually didn't move from my bed till 11. even though honestly didn't want to but figured I probably should and ended up going out and having lunch with brother & his wife along with dad and their 2 adorable kids.

Well that's it for now, could go on & on but then i'd probably just talk about the same thing over and over again haha, Peace xx

Blah

So feeling Blah right now, not completely sure why I feel like this but I just do & honestly feel like i'm not enough either, like i'm not enough for anyone it's like oh i like you but don't really want to be with you, or i'm only with you until i find someone better than you.

GAH I don't want to feel like this, because I don't really want to feel this way nor do i really have a reason to feel this way today, guess it's just a emotional day or afternoon. I'm just whatever who cares probably no one.

So Peace xx

IYIYI

I am currently addicted to this song, don't know why but i am. I own nothing.

Peace xx

Confused?!?!

So i've come to a point in my life that well i wouldn't say confuses me but it's just different I've started falling for someone that well i wouldn't say i wouldn't normally but the person is different is different from people i've dated in the past. I don't know if anything would ever happen am not saying that i don't want it to happen, just saying that living in different states doesn't really help what so ever.

This person brings out feelings i never knew i had, i've never been a jealous person but yet i sometimes get this nagging jealous feeling in the back of my mind and i can't seem to help it. Do i want that feeling No, but i don't know what i need to do in order to get rid of it. I've never been a confident person, i've always been insecure person & a little insecure with my relationship. I don't even know what is happening or what we are if we are anything but i guess just having it be blah is good and not.

I don't know just feeling really weird over this i don't know how to feel or act, & i haven't told anyone because well i don't know what to say. GAH i hate this feeling, i hate the feeling of unknown just like i hate the feeling of failing at something, knowing my luck i would fail at this.

Well that's it for now, nuff of the sad stuff going to go do something else, maybe call G he knows what to say and what i need to hear!!!

Peace & Love

xx

Venting Session One

Fark it really seems like no matter what i do some ppl are going to get pissed with me. It seriously so freaking annoying so what i vented on twitter about you? guess what i didn't name you and so what if a certain someone follows me you think she cares what i say about you or that she's waiting just for those tweets, Pretty sure she has better things to do with her time and I can be friends with who ever i want to and we don't even talk about you cause guess what there are way more important things in the world that!!

And also i need to grow up seriously? I don't need to i'm fine with everything i don't make a big deal out of things i don't call people spoilt because they got a new laptop!! I really wish everyone would get along but i know they wont because some people just don't know how to be civil. But from now on i'm just going to be blah not going to let you get to me because I'm better than and I don't need you make me think that i'm not.

Peace xx

Welcome

Welcome to Live Laugh Dream!! This is just a quick post about what this site is about. It's a personal blog where i shall vent when i please, posting fashion posts when i have an outfit that someone has worn that i love or even just a quick movie review or music review.

Feel free to comment and come back time and time again, i hope you enjoy it.

xx